Numb

Quite a bit has changed since my last post. looking for work, waiting for unemployment to start. I am feeling rather numb about a lot of things. i right now don't car whether i find a job or not. i would rather wait for unemployment checks to supplement the money loss. a small part of me as well still thinks i could just get ready and head to work. i am sort of discombobulated with everything. at one point i am ok, other times i am stressed and overwhelmed. we'll see what happens.